Life is Changing
My life has been turned upside down and I don't really know how to handle it. God has decided that there were some things that needed to be changed in my life, and it has taken me awhile to get used to the idea that these things are permanent and there is no going back to the way things were. It is a hard lesson to learn.
You are probably wondering what the heck I'm talking about. Well, I guess if you read my personal blog, then you would know what I'm talking about. But if you havn't, I'll give you a brief explanation. I have recently quit all my involvements and committments that I've been involved with for the past two years or so. I was a main youth leader in my church for the past year and a half and have quit that. I have volunteered at a youth centre for about two years, and have also decided to take a step back from that. That has left me with no responsibilities and no committments. It is totally wierd and strange, and I have no idea what to do with spare time.
I guess spare time is not the right term. I am in school, and therefore, spare time is a foreign phrase. Being in school has been a huge, huge adjustment. I am a full time student and getting my brain active again, is a battle, and is hard to get used to. It has been wierd spending every night reading, when I hate reading! It is just a big adjustment.
Lastly, my relationships are changing. My best friends are gone, (or getting married), my family is growing (my sister has a boyfriend that is looking very serious) and the relationships that I thought were stable are now being reevaluated. It has been hard.
BUT, God has shown Himself. Though there is so much change and nothing seems stable, there is a rock that never moves. God has shown Himself to me in so many ways and has brought comfort and strength when I thought there was no reason for living. He has given me hope for the future, and peace about the past. He is helping me to live in the moment and wait patiently for His timing. It has been amazing. I hope that amidst the changes that you may be experiencing, you would feel the peace that passes understanding and now that we have an amazing God who is never changing!
You are probably wondering what the heck I'm talking about. Well, I guess if you read my personal blog, then you would know what I'm talking about. But if you havn't, I'll give you a brief explanation. I have recently quit all my involvements and committments that I've been involved with for the past two years or so. I was a main youth leader in my church for the past year and a half and have quit that. I have volunteered at a youth centre for about two years, and have also decided to take a step back from that. That has left me with no responsibilities and no committments. It is totally wierd and strange, and I have no idea what to do with spare time.
I guess spare time is not the right term. I am in school, and therefore, spare time is a foreign phrase. Being in school has been a huge, huge adjustment. I am a full time student and getting my brain active again, is a battle, and is hard to get used to. It has been wierd spending every night reading, when I hate reading! It is just a big adjustment.
Lastly, my relationships are changing. My best friends are gone, (or getting married), my family is growing (my sister has a boyfriend that is looking very serious) and the relationships that I thought were stable are now being reevaluated. It has been hard.
BUT, God has shown Himself. Though there is so much change and nothing seems stable, there is a rock that never moves. God has shown Himself to me in so many ways and has brought comfort and strength when I thought there was no reason for living. He has given me hope for the future, and peace about the past. He is helping me to live in the moment and wait patiently for His timing. It has been amazing. I hope that amidst the changes that you may be experiencing, you would feel the peace that passes understanding and now that we have an amazing God who is never changing!
posted by Suzanne Veenstra at 7:27 PM
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